Tom knelt down and touched the grave, smiling sadly. He was silent for some moments and then he took a deep breath. “Hey… I know it’s been a while. I’m sorry.” He said softly. “I’m glad Lore was taking care of everything here. I know I shouldn’t have disappeared.”
“I’m having some problems with Jay. We’re going to get married. I want it so bad, and I’m so scared… Because of what happened, Mog. It wasn’t fair. I should have taken care of you… I know she keeps saying it wasn’t my fault, but I know it was. I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have hurt you, never…”
Tom sobbed softly and looked down, shaking his head. He took another deep breath, trying to keep calm, but he couldn’t help when he started crying silently.
“It wasn’t fair to you… If you were here, maybe things could be better…Easier.. Maybe I’d know what to do now.” He mumbled. “I can’t forgive myself for what I did. Sometimes I think I don’t want to. I…I already hurt him. I almost lost him, another person I love. I should be dead, Mog, not you. I’m a monster.”
Tom sighed and wiped his face, trying to stop crying. He looked around for a moment, but then touched the grave toward him again, stroking the name.
“Why can I just hurt everyone, Mog? I know I’m a monster, but.. I’m too scared, and I don’t know what to do. You’d know, though. You were the smarter one, remember? I just could bring trouble to us.”
“…I miss you, brother. I really do. I wish things could be different. I wish you could be here.”